First, I'll get this one part out of the way if only because a few people on my watch list have reposted this in their journals:

Fake Friends Repost

No offense, but ... People are getting too fake on me . They only want posts, comments, or to see how many friends they can get. So let's see who will actually repost this. This is a test to see who's paying attention. This is a test to see how many people in my friends list actually pay attention to me. Copy and repost in your own bulletin. Lets see who the true friends are and I think I know who you are... Repost this if you are a friend...Don't reply... just copy and paste this in a new bulletin as "Fake Friends'

True friends will read and repost this. Fake friends will just ignore it. I don't really expect anyone to repost this. Honestly, I think I know who is a good friend and who isn't. However, given my inactivity and the fact that I've been a lousy friend, I don't expect anyone to give this a second glance. I just want you to know that I do care even if I seem too busy or self-absorbed to bother. "My love for you is like a lovely river of loving, love." Or something like that.


...I'll say I'm leaving because 99% of the time people say that on DA, they come back within a few days. That being said, I do have art that I'm CGing (though I'm hesitant to post it...) and some that I'm sketching, so I might post something eventually. But honestly, I'm somewhat busy, and when I do have free time, I'm usually too worn out to really want to communicate. That sounds incredibly selfish, yes, but talking to people is draining for me, regardless of whether they are in person or online.


Ugh. A variety of things are making me want to rip out my hair, which is no good. I don't fancy patchy bald spots...or any baldness for that matter. I don't think skinhead is a good look on me. D:

Sorry. This shouldn't be a caustic journal, but I'm rather frustrated right now for several reasons. I'm being antagonized for no good reason, and that combined with a general lack of respect is really trying my patience.

On a random note, sort of going along with the title, a few weeks ago, I was pseudo-dreaming in creole. I say pseudo-dreaming because I wasn't really asleep, but I wasn't completely cognizant...


...So I'll see you again in a month or five after a long period of absence. I honestly feel guilty about my inactivity, but it mostly manifests whenever I post on DA. In other words, the more I visit DA, the more I realize what a crappy job I've done at being active which makes me in turn feel crappy. But I'll try to suck it up and post. Like I said in both my last journal and this journal, I'm fairly busy and stressed right now. Once everything is a little less hectic, I'll try to update or at least be active once a week and see from there if I can do it more frequently than that. If I can't try to start this habit tomorrow, I'll try Sunday, if not then, I'll probably try again in November or December. D:

Muuugh. I need to make hot tea or something. My throat hurts from nagging nonstop. I really hate being the spoil sport or the villain, but I think my job is slowly turning me into more of a bastard than I already was. Excuse the language, please. Again, I'm not in the best of moods, so it probably isn't the best time to be posting a journal. Undoubtedly it has turned into my mundane whining. But hey, I'm not expressing my anguish in emoetry...or as an acquaintance of mine calls it, "oh noetry" ahahahah.

Okay. Now it's time for hot tea or a cough drop. It huuuuuurts.